April 17th
So things have been horrible these past few hours or days. I have been feeling more and more depressed just lost my fp but its okay since he left me when I was getting harassed and stalked by people and now he's falsely accusing me of being a pedo (a fake SS with no logs to back it up) but the one thing he said is that ii tried to get with him (or acted like) we were dating. its not true. I have symptoms of bpd.of course I would act like that but its the fact that I didn't, when he vented about his girlfriend I did NOT try to say weird or creepy shit towards him and I supported him, I told alot of people we wasn't dating also HE was the one who wanted to match pfps like videl and Gohan and agree to a weird joke image with vegito as a female and gogeta being tease. everyone saw us matching it. he was also the one who bought me online and when I try to buy him something he declined it, he never said once "can you please stop? I have a girlfriend" in fact he lost his girlfriend due to trauma dumping anyway he himself said that they were broken up so even if I did try to get with him it shouldn't have been a problem unless he started to date someone else a day later (without telling anyone) and he knew I was lesbian so how the fuck a lesbian gonna be with a straight man? oh I guess i'm bisexual because I joke 24/7 about fucking Goku who's an man but lets all face it, irl men fucking sucks. all he did is fucking enabled my ass and when I was in the worst possible space THATS when he had to say "oh she was making me uncomfortable!" despite yourself saying u loved me (/p) and enjoyed my pings even tho I apologized on many days. like guys if ur gonna be blaming a lesbian for trying to get with you then u had to had feelings for her prior.
other than that, i'm currently STILL being harassed and stalked but even worse my ex friend is being very fucking weird to me, triggering me on purpose saying "fp this" or "fp should have known" because I crashed out after founding out he blocked me because again i'm not even well. I'm being threatened to not date or have friends which is just wild and this is over me saying "plap plap get pregnant!!" to Goku in a annoucements channel of me being silly which is why i'm not mad but they keep accusing me of being a pedophile despite me being a grooming victim and my adult stalker harassing me right now. it was fucking confirmed many times that she brought me up, constantly. and even tried to contact me. her and others are STILL harassing me since MONTHS LATER (January) and its not even my birthday yet. I tried to ask for help many times and only got passed off as (mentally ill) despite this being violence against women this point because its not only females involved but also adult men, adult men and women and some teenagers.
so yeah i'm NOT allowed to make friends, i'm NOT allowed to date, i'm not allow to have an fp. ok.